It has been a while since I could get myself to sit down and express all the feelings I have had over the past few weeks. The last time I sat down with my thoughts I was thinking about the upcoming 1 year mark of the life changing event. Since then Wyatt has stayed with someone other than family for a few nights and guess what he did AWESOME!
He can't wait to do it again. As a friend told me "sometimes he needs a break for you too!" That got me thinking and realizing how much Wyatt and I are together. We get to laugh, cry and get angry together but sometimes we need to let others in so they can also learn the real life part of our life and join us in our journey into the mystic.
Recently, I started seeing my therapist again and I think it helped me figure out why I haven't written in a while. She is someone different than I was seeing previously but I felt the need to make an appointment with her when I saw a post about her opening a clinic in Destrehan. As I sat there and told her my story I could feel all of my worries and frustrations come out. I was surprised by what I have kept bottled up. She asked me, "why have you decided to come see me after not talking to someone for months." I realized at that point I have not let my self settle into the mystic of our new life. I paused for a minute and I realized since April 2022 we have been going non stop: Getting equipment ordered, getting it installed, going on special trips gifted from the kindness of others, starting a new clinical trial and so much more. I can't say life has really slowed down because it definitely has not been easy (because school is ALWAYS hard) but I guess we have gotten a little more used to this life.
Now I am working on acceptance and talking about my true feelings, my worries and the fear of the future with those I love. I have kept it all inside for a while and I have slowly been falling into my cyclical funk so now it is time to break out of the funk before I fall too deep into it.
My heart if full of gratitude to everyone on our journey. Those who have been with us every step of the way, the new friends who have joined us and to those of you who have come back into our lives. It is a beautiful gift to see my children find friendships like I had when I was their age and journey into the mystic of life with people who care about them no matter what. It makes my heart so full to see Wyatt with friends and Wynston letting him joining in when the are out and about in the neighborhood.
Our new friends, The Poche's, bought a ramp so Wyatt can get into the house when all the kids are hanging out there. This last picture is from our friend Ray's retirement party. Lily and Wyatt have known each other since they were born but just started hanging out as friends this past year. Its wild to see ourselves in our children.
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