Put it in the News

I feel like I'm failing because this blog has fallen lower on my list of priorities. I know I should write because it's cathartic for me but good grief I need to take some time to do it, for myself. Even my counselor texted me to check on me because I haven't gotten into a rhythm yet and scheduled an appointment.

My stress is palpable. I'm having times that I can't catch my breath but not a true panic attack. I know why I have the stress and anxiety but it isn't something I can remove so I have to manage it. I try to balance the anxiety and exhaustion of being a special needs mom. I manage multiple appointments, school assignments, anxiety and behaviors others will never understand and I would never wish on anyone but I just wish we could have some one be on the "news" telling our story because them maybe it would be a little less explaining and judging.

The other night as I was trying to unwind and relax after being out of town and bringing Wyatt back to school, I heard on the "news" coming up, How does the WNBA star juggle life with a child." It seriously stopped me in my tracks. I shook my head and asked what the hell...how does a professional athlete play ball and take care of a healthy baby. Is this a joke...for some reason I let this upset me. I said out loud they can't be serious...I want to know how single moms of a special needs child does it. It's hard enough for me with a committed husband and father to get through everyday. Shame on the news for putting this out there. It diminishes the work of parents who struggle everyday for one reason or another.

I don't need accolades or a pat on my back for living a life that I wouldn't change, but seriously hearing the "News" pat a professional sports player on the back for taking care of her child just makes me question our world. I will keep trudging on and making the best out of the life we have. I will continue to look at my boys and know why I push on and keep going. Sometimes it just makes you wonder what everyone else is thinking.

I wanted to add on a positive note, Wyatt had his annual specialist visit and he is STABLE. He was exhausted after a long day in the clinic, as you can see. But we will take the exhaustion because his heart and lungs look good so we will celebrate and continue doing what we are doing.